Going through this the first time in my life.
oh my god.i was really shocked.

I was on my home from school, and it was late already.
School ends at 7:30pm. Released at around 7:45pm.
Was hungry, bought food.
Mum called me, I accidently press ‘reject’. And was not
expecting mum to call me.

I text: “Adek going back home alr.”
mum replied: “Nak cakap, atuk da takde”
I replied: ” Ape maksud mii?”
mum replied: “meninggal dunia”

I was shocked, hardly talk. Kept quiet. cant eat that much.
I called baby, then he was shocked. ):
FEEL RETARD AGAIN

To my dearest grandfather,
I know, we didnt talked that much.
But you always disturb me by tickling and all. I never hated you.
like whats the use right. I saw you grandfather.But i pity people who
is still living now, looking at you. especially granny… ): & mostly my mother.
cant say anything much.
tahara

17th November 09.

Its too ugly when it starts again.
I aint know why im acting that way. or maybe it
could be, like to the certain extend that its hard to trust.
eventhough in certain things.
I feel insecure. How he could just accused me in things
that i do not like it so much.

AND how could he just say things towards me,
that can lead to tightrope.
Im scared at point. BUT i can be very mean.
I love you. But dont take advantage of it.
I will never get carried away with guys.

Still

One gone. Another comes.

I pity myself sometimes.I live with one.not alot.or too many.
That sucks. Hate you for some reason. or maybe i could say
all of it. I cant move on easily. SHIT! i forgot! i did something wrong.
AND its a shame of myself.
Is he really changing for me? hmmm..
i hope so. If not i have to move on with my life.
gawd! gave him alot of chances.HOPE THIS IS THE LAST.

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What a SYMPATHETIC CHILD.
She followed me? gawd. eww eww. bluuuehhh. yucks.
ITS TOO IRRITATING.

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OBSESSED;
yeahh,thats the word for someone i know that really suits for him.
there’s like 3 of HIM. haha.
AND fuck off yall !

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13th November 2009. MY HEART SMILED.

I miss him badly, waiting for his calls. ):

I was warded on 7th Of November, Saturday.
& I get to discharged on 9th Of November, Monday.
Got two days of MC.

Eventhough you did stupidmistakes or a big lie.
I aint know why i still have the HEART for you.

i miss him so much. );